I had originally planned to wait until further into my Pregnancy After Loss (PAL) journey before I shared my experience, however this week has been PAL Awareness week and ends today with the prompt ‘What Do You Want People To Know About Pregnancy After Loss?’ and so I thought, ok I’m going to take the plunge … Continue reading What I Want People To Know About Pregnancy After Loss
So I’m sitting here, 32 weeks pregnant, around 8 weeks away from potentially holding a healthy rainbow baby in my arms, with two conflicting thoughts running through my mind… How have I managed to make it through this long and tedious slog of pregnancy after loss? How on Earth has it simultaneously gone so fast that the end has … Continue reading Our Rainbow Journey
A few weeks ago I was confronted by a Facebook post that questioned why parents of stillborn babies would share photographs of their deceased children on social platforms. The status was rather brutal and flippant with little regard for the impact it would have on the several people in their friends list who had suffered … Continue reading A Winters Tale – Why I choose to openly share my sons story and photographs
December 8th 2016 we discovered we were pregnant. The test that first appeared negative and gradually became what’s known in the business as a ‘squinter’ until finally after the 2 minutes allocated time became a line bold enough to crack a smile. Of course I took several other brand tests, decided I would wait and tell … Continue reading Our Rainbow Is Coming
When I was pregnant with Winter I spent a lot of time wondering how my life would change when he arrived. I imagined sleepless nights and groggy confusion and newborn survival, all wrapped up in a big thankful-for-his-existence bow. And actually, despite his death, that expectation was pretty accurate. But of course, it wasn’t at … Continue reading Preparing For The Unpreparable.
Jealousy is an emotion we have all encountered in our lives, both experiencing the repercussions from someone else who feels jealous, or living with the uncomfortable feeling ourselves. If someone were to ask you ‘how many times have you felt jealous?’ it would be an impossible question to answer. Even if as adults we don’t suffer with … Continue reading Finding Happiness For Others: Choosing Joy Over Jealousy
This week marks a whole year of Winter being out the womb and in the world. What is, for parents of living children, a time of great excitement and celebration, can be a time of huge anxiety, pain and sadness for those of us amongst the infant loss community. Whilst for many, the first birthday represents … Continue reading Winter ONEderland… Happy 1st Birthday Winter
It appeared that our time in Sri Lanka had gifted us another rainbow. Everything pointed to a fairytale ending. We had lost our little boy at one day old, we had suffered a further miscarriage, we had eloped and married on a beach to celebrate our sons ten month mark, we came home pregnant and … Continue reading The Brief Life of Baby Coconut
In the nine months that have passed since our son lived and died, entire pregnancies have evolved from the meeting of egg and sperm, to live and kicking out-of-the-womb babies. During that time, I have held more babies more times than I will ever hold my own, and each Facebook log in brings with it a … Continue reading A Bigger Taboo – Facing Other Babies When You Have Lost Your Own
An honest yet uplifting introduction to my story of infant loss, in honour of my little boy Winter Wolfe.